I thought that I'd be what I preached I didn't mean to fuck you over so badly I swore that I loved you and you swear that you love me We both should've kept it in cause our love wasn't healthy I didn't wanna bore you but I thought I was boring And now you think I hate you when really I just hate me I thought that I'd be what I preached But you saw my true colors when we went to the beach How could I ignore you and why didn't you just leave? I wish when we were swimming, you woulda fucking drowned me Baby, I can blame it on my jealousy Or maybe you were too fucking enticing Or maybe I tried to fix you regardless of me Maybe we were ruined by dependency It is so crazy my words don't fit my actions You knew I was a wreck you were waiting for this to happen How could you give me your heart knowing I couldn't grasp it? You knew I was a wreck you were waiting for this to happen