I've been working like I got a twin
I just made my first rap salary
I dont wanna make friends.I wanna stay away from every bit of reality
Music is telling me that it's okay
Mama is telling me that this is damaging
Now, I wanna leave rap
Mentally, don't even know what is happening!
Paranoia really bothering me coz everyday I'm in the same place
Gotta wake up then I gotta go to college, everything for an A grade
I mean look at the facts
What do we do? What do we chase?
Nothing & nothing every single day!
*Maybe you're right*
Yay
That is ridiculous
These are molecular problems
With every honor
In every college
That'll get bigger if we do not solve 'em
Imma be honest!
Enough is enough, my temple is music
And if it kills me before I *gunshot*
Everybody got something that they are running away from
People be thinking in black & white, I'd be the grey one
If you tell me I'm not acting right, then you a fake one
This is for me & myself, so you can go & hate us!
Ayushya: Listen F8L, it is me
F8L: Get away, I'm busy please
Ayushya: I know you dont wanna talk to me
F8L: I just dont wanna listen to you,
Now we have a connection, why would you wanna just take it apart?
Ayushya: Usually, I would just say something like "I can feel it in
My heart" but I would be wrong.
Coz I'm tired of you telling me what to do
F8L: But this is your dream!
Why would you wanna walk away from everything that is not you!
Ayushya: You dont even know what I'm facing dude.
You and all of your crazy moods.
Mommy daddy tell me music is damaging me.
I dont spend time with the family Nah!
I stay away from everybody everywhere even though it isnt personal
F8L: Imagine the happiness when they see you on a world tour.
When you buy dad a Lamborgini,
When you take mommy from the first floor to
The 51st, in the skyscraper that you got for her!
Ayushya: I know it'll happen, I know it'll happen!
When I go platinum. I just dont wanna get tired of rapping
But I gotta go somewhere & I dont wanna miss the flight there
I dont wanna miss the flight there!
I dont wanna miss the flight there!
*Airplane takes off*
I just dont wanna listen to you
You just dont wanna listen to me
We just dont wanna listen to us
Baby I wanted to leave the planet with
You, I remember looking into your eyes
I put my arms around you.
That is something that I dont do unless I feel it inside
Now I got trust issues.
And I made a 10 minute song explaining why I broke up with you
I had enough of the insecurities and jealousy thoughts
I hate every single guy you talk to
Tell everybody that I warned you,
But you dont wanna listen to my words
Or use your own mind unless it is too late
And it really hurts coz I know that we
Still love each other but we made some mistakes
The only difference is I never
Included a third person but it isnt so great
I told my mama about you, like "This is the girl that I love"
She lemme take a flight to your
City just to see you. I remember the hug
At the airport and therefore
It really hurts just thinking inside
Coz I know that you did everything
That you could do just to make it right
But its not that easy to overlook
Something I can't even mention in here
I know that we are not even together
Anymore but honey please be careful there!
When I told you how to deal with something, it was always for you
It was never for me, but that doesnt mean that it is heaven for me
Coz I hate the fact that we tried to build our own world
But ended up making an earthquake
I never put any girl above you, or with you in the first place
You were the only one I held in my arms like it was my purpose
But I guess it is my fault
Coz I thought that you would be as loyal as I was
Social media and bad friends were poisonous to this relationship
But not knowing how to deal with them is
The worst and you know I hate the things
You did. Not only coz they were disloyal but because you didn't learn
And I hate this distance, the flame is gone but dammit it burns