They say the worst of your feelings will all come in waves
And with no way to speed up the time you're left drowning for days
Oh I know that's how the saying goes
But at the very least could somebody lend me a little lifeboat
I asked the question you replied with the answer I'd feared
And in one second flat well my certitude all disappeared
Oh in a daze I stumbled round black and blue
And I stayed in the fog cos the smell of it reminds me of you
And I have tried to be strong for my mother
Who's worried I'm looking too thin
I've tried to stop feeling like I am a stranger inside my own skin
I've tried to imagine
What might happen next time I agree to let somebody in
I wouldn't know where to begin
Sometimes I worry I'll stay feeling this way for years
And when I go to that place well exhaustions the least of my fears
Oh I can't bear to take another loss
So I'll burn all my bridges before even needing to cross
And I have tried to believe all my friends
When they tell me it's not gonna last
I've tried not to ruin my future by dwelling too much on my past
I've tried to imagine,
Being able to truthfully say I'm alright when I'm asked
I wouldn't know where to start
So I'll keep our photographs
Every moment I captured your laugh
And I'll store them somewhere they can't hurt my heart
I'm not ready yet, but I'm looking for where to start
So I will try
I will try, oh I will try
Oh I will try, I will try
Try, oh I will try
Oh I will try
I will try to believe all my friends and be strong for my mother
To know there's a world out there I can discover at last
Where to start will be soon in the past