CD's and records up on display
You've got them hanging while your wall chips from the cheap paint
I look at you and feel an earthquake, so I look away
Get on my feet and run outside 'cause it's a good day
Chasing feathers, seek out the good in me
The good in me was helping you, so what if I'm not clean?
I stay a while to walk behind, you call it charity
I'm sick of verses telling me to forgive when he didn't answer me
And every blue feeling I had
Every word that I left unsaid
Every kiss just to feel something else
Every inch of me I've given away to someone left me dead, and I still mourn for it
Tell me that it's worth it in the end, and I'm deserving of his
Love and that you look up to my strength
But I'd do anything to never have to be this strong again
To never have to be this strong again
White sheets and a small blood stain
White car and they all look the same to me
A young face in the mirror while
Old thoughts race beneath the surface and it ripples
Spreads throughout the water 'til its image finally settles
What to do with all this rage shouting like a kettle?
The shit that makes me special makes me sick, it harms my mental
And I kinda wish the world had been a lot more gentle
Every blue feeling I had
Every word that I left unsaid
Every kiss just to feel something else
Every inch of me I've given away to someone left me dead
Every message I couldn't send
Every road I wish didn't end
Every tune I've sung to make amends
Everyone that I've met took a part of me when they left and I still mourn for it
Tell me that it's worth it in the end, and I'm deserving of his
Love and that you look up to my strength, but I still long for it
Tell me he'll forgive me in the end, but I'm not asking him
Tell him I might forgive him if he begs
But I'm not asking him, I'm not asking him for help
No, I'm not asking him, I'm not asking anymore
And I'd do anything to never have to be this strong again
I'd do anything to never have to be this strong again
(I'm not asking him, I'm not asking anymore)
(I'm not asking him, I won't ask him anymore)
(I'm not asking him, I'm not asking anymore)
(I'm not asking him, I'm not asking anymore)