Slow it down
We pass a street and i'm reminded that this is my hometown
The same old faces that I've seen
I feel so small now
I wonder if you'd be proud if you could see and feel
What I do before I sleep?
But if I had a time machine
I'd write you a letter
Sayin' things aren't better
There are some things you can't remember
It gets worse every September
You give in to your fuckin' temper
Been eight years, was a great pretender
That it didn't hurt when they defended him
I wish I was over it
But my skin feels like a cage
And I've bleached it fuckin' raw but
What do I do with all these stains?
How do I miss what I wasn't handed?
Tell me where hasn't he touched?
Why do I still lay awake at night
Begging him to fuckin' stop?
Touch and leave me there
'Cause you'll see how I flinch away from you
If you take a moment to really stare
From the inside I lied, i said I was doing fine
And I believed it, you did, it worked for a good while
Until it didn't, the stitches opened, the rug lifted
Who was I kidding? I was a kid then
But I still wanted to be forgiven
If I had a time machine
I'd shake you awake
I'd tell you to hurry up and feel what we have to feel today
Everyone's gone and moved on
But I still hear him say my name
It's hard to get up and be strong when I feel 11 on most days
And I wish I was over it
But my skin feels like a cage
And I've bleached it fuckin' raw but
What do I do with all these stains?
How do I miss what I wasn't handed?
God, why'd you let him get away?
Why do I still lay awake at night
Begging him to please just stop already?
I feel like I'm 11 (God, I'll believe you if you take him away)
I feel like I'm 11 (God, I'll believe you if you take this away)
I feel like I'm 11 (God I'll believe you, I wanna believe you)
I still feel like I'm 11 (God, I'll believe you, I wanna believe you)
I feel like I'm 11 (God, I'll believe you if you take him away)
I feel like I'm 11 (God, I'll believe you if you take this away)
I feel like I'm 11 (God, I'll believe you, I wanna believe you)
I still feel like I'm 11 (God, I'll believe you, I wanna believe you)