Couldn't wait Looking back now was losing time I was young Felt so safe in paradise I used to hide In a house of sheets and lies I wish I was flawless I wish I was honest Growin' old ain't easy Trynna find a meaning Won't stand in line What if I drink Relax until its over No I won't sink Relapse until I'm sober It's getting hard to lift my shoulders And my feet are getting colder What if I breathe Maybe i'll see Clearer Clearer Clearer Maybe i'll see Clearer Clearer Clearer Gotta pay For a room just for tonight Catching planes Back and forth I need a sign I think about every dollar I spend To keep myself alive Wish I was flawless But I'm honest What if I drink Relax until it's over No I won't sink Relapse until I'm sober It's getting hard to lift my shoulders And my feet are getting colder What if I breathe Maybe i'll see Clearer I'm in too deep But I'll break free I gotta leave this behind I'm done fading away I'm done feeling afraid I'm losing my patience Hoping for change What if I drink Relax until it's over No I won't sink Relapse until I'm sober It's getting hard to lift my shoulders And my feet are getting colder What if I breathe Maybe i'll see Clearer Clearer Clearer Maybe i'll see Clearer Clearer Clearer Maybe i'll see Clearer Clearer Clearer Clearer Clearer