Yeah I know I may have hurt you but does that make this okay? I see your coping mechanism and it ruins my day But I'm afraid to stand up for myself Afraid of what I'll say So I find myself slowly fading away 118 new messages 199 missed calls After all that time spent on the Phone trying to help you get through it Trying to ease the fall I did what was best for me And in the end you'll see it was best for both of us I'm a mess I'm broken But you are too We are separated To be fixed to new So don't make me the villain Just 'cause we weren't meant to be That's not down to my control I had to leave You don't know how long it took me to block you I found it hard so don't act like I was never good to you I felt like I was trapped Forced to stay But I had friends that told me that it was not okay So I left before it got too much I wasn't prepared for when you made the first punch I said I wanted space but you wouldn't give up Made it harder for yourself but it would never be enough 'Cause what went on between us Seemed fine Until I looked a little closer And saw the inside I chose to lose you To save myself To stop me being someone else I thought I was strong But you knew more I'd been manipulated Left brain dead And sore What I didn't want to do Was start a fight Because you know that's not me You know that's not right But I felt like I had no choice I'm still stuck under your shadow Screaming for a voice But it came It's here now I'm speaking out I'm not playing the victim I'm out and proud! It maybe wasn't toxic But I know you're not blind And I know you know deep down that there was bad times So go on Ask for me back Do it again and again but don't expect me to crack I've grown, you've seen it More than ever So take credit for that I don't It's whatever You may think I've finally got what I want to (Thought I was strong) But you're just looking at what I've achieved I was there for you before (But you were stronger) But this one? It's for me I chose to lose you To save myself To stop me being someone else I thought I was strong But you knew more I'd been manipulated Left brain-dead And sore I know you're listening And I know it hurts You've got to be strong You've got to learn I left because I needed to and you told me you knew that So if you ever really loved me this is how you prove that When I say I needed time I'm telling you I meant that I'm broken I'm fixing myself I hope you understand that I know I lost you To save myself I'm not becoming someone else I know that I'm strong But you know more I felt manipulated Left brain-dead And sore