I'm getting used to not sleeping. Therefore I can not count the days. Sometimes I slip on dreaming- in the background they fade. I think too much of the meanings and it is not enough to hit the page. I get stuck in the feelings and lost inside the grays. I think I'm one to believe if it stays strong, then it's worth it, but everything I'm watching shows is not one thing is the same. Something has been eating me. I can feel it in my veins. My heart and my mind become a victim of my rage. To channel the pain into something I can see more gain. Strip the spirits of the demons I contain. There is no light without the darkness. We have to fight to make a mark. We can slip and fall apart, but we will not lower our hearts. Even after I leave there will always be a part of me inside all the people who have watched me, and they show me what is worth living. When all the lights go out and nobody is there to see their movements, I want to know what's going through your mind. And even if there is not a single star in the sky tonight, I feel like I'm lighting the sky. I simply take it day by day. Okay, we've all been lost. And when it starts to fade, remember everything you have. We're too young to say something true, why the fuck do you think it's so urgent? I can not close my eyes because I know that when I do, I scare myself with vicious thoughts and words that sound false, damaging my mind I see a door that releases my soul. If I could find that key I close my eyes and go to sleep. I can not close my eyes.