Oh, what's it like
To be alive
To be alive
Dead inside I wonder what it's like to be alive
I'm unsatisfied, I can't describe what I see through my eyes
My music foreshadows the ending to my story, suicide
Darkness hovers over me and
I can run but I can't hide
I don't deserve a choice,
I don't deserve a voice
I'm a selfish, helpless freak
Trapped in an endless void
I'm sad, not happy, just look at me,
Not one ounce of joy
I'm hurtin' badly, I just can't be stable,
I'm destroyed (Ay, yeah)
I'm surrounded by so many people,
They don't understand why I still feel alone
I have anxiety, cryin' out silently,
Child-like fears but I'm already grown
I hate society, I'm never smilin',
I'll never fit in, I don't have a home
Livin' defiantly, my head is spiralling
Just like the bullet I'm 'bout to unload
Oh, what's it like
To be alive
To be alive
Life is a tragedy, everyday's rigorous
Some just don't get it, I envy the ignorant
That would be perfect,
I can't even picture it
I'm always dealin' with different predicaments
Ay, yeah, I've always realized
Freedom is death
Missin' a heart, there ain't shit in my chest
I really mean every word I express,
I'm not indirect
Rains, I'm an unsolvable mystery
No highs, just lows, only losses, no victories
You should know that if you followed my history
Spillin' my spirit out,
Y'all feel the misery
Woah, all of my lyric's provocative
Everyone wants me to say somethin' positive
Can't even fake bein' fake, I'm the opposite
I'm a true artist, tap into my consciousness
Sometimes I think I don't even exist
Distorted, not normal, mortal with a twist
Nobody knows me, I'm harder to pick
It causes me pain when I reminisce
Memories got my brain floatin' adrift
I try to make my mentality shift
I'll never change but it is what it is
It is what it is
Oh, what's it like
To be alive
To be alive