Underwood
Every now and then, I look at all those pictures that she took
Then my heart drops down to my stomach, that got me shook
I'm a misfit, fuck up, she said that she understood
Then she left me wit' nothin', she stole my soul, that girl's a crook
I'm the first of my kind, I'm a trendsetter
Every word that I write is made of love letters
She put a target on my back then hit me dead center
To this day, I'm still in pain, it doesn't get better (Listen)
In the rain, I'm freezin' cold, I'm still the same, ain't got no hope
But all my chains is solid gold, Ice in my veins, I'm made of snow
I've always prayed someday I'll blow and be famous around the globe
I'm deranged, I've been seein' ghosts,
I'm insane when I'm spittin' flows (Yeah)
Tired all the time, look under my eyes,
I got Louis bags
Bathing Ape my hoodie, when I'm sad,
I'm zippin' up the mess
Smokin' on this LG, rich as fuck,
I roll it up in cash
Pop-star money, I don't sing but my diamonds dance (Roll up)
All these Percies put my mind at ease
I've been contemplatin'
Overdosin' 7 days a week
Always in my feelings 'cause that bitch ain't got no faith in me
Suicidal thoughts so don't look up to me, don't take my lead
Chains around my neck, can't breathe,
I'm strangled by depression
I'ma die alone, nobody loves my imperfections
Blurry vision, think there's somethin' wrong with my perception
When I look in the mirror,
There's no one there, ain't no reflection
Baby, I'm bad news, piercings and tattoos
Dropped outta classrooms,
Not 'cause I act cool
It's 'cause I'm that cool, new whip
It's brand new
New watch, it's brand new,
I act a damn fool
But on some real shit,
I'm the face of sad music
They can imitate my flow but not my life,
I been through it
I ain't in it for the recognition, nah,
I just do it
I'm expressin' my emotions,
There ain't nothin' else to it
I ain't tryna be nobody else but me
All my trials and tribulations,
They been shapin' my beliefs
Maybe happiness is just a dream,
It seems so out of reach
Fightin' darkness in my brain,
I'm tryna find my inner peace
When I hop inside the Wraith,
I'm skrrtin', swervin' through the streets
Not afraid to meet my fate,
Since I was born, I've been deceased
Swear to God, we ain't the same 'cause I'm on top, you underneath
I just wanna run away,
It's hard for me to even breathe
Whatever happens happens,
Either way we leave in caskets
I done seen some shit,
The type of shit you can't imagine
I survived, I persevered through all the fuckin' madness
I should've died but what I do?
I just upped my status
And as life goes on, everythin' goes wrong
How can I be strong when I can't move on?
I'm too far gone, I'm far too gone
They say "get in where you fit in" but I don't belong
Shawty let me down,
That's why I sip this drink
Titanic relationship, we drowned then sank
Nothin' last forever, that's a lie, that's fake
We tried to stay together,
That was all mistakes (Damn)
Anythin' that's good is just too good to be true
My mind's beyond my years but
You don't wanna see from this view
I shed tears, I can't even help but cry, I'm confused
It's been years since I've felt alive,
I might end it soon
Real soon