I pray that you forgive me for being someone I'm not
I regret every second I spend wasting inside my thoughts
Our relationship is over, but girl, our love isn't lost
You deserve the world and in the end, I was nothing but talk
I wish that I changed in time, I wish that I treated you differently
I was only here psychically and I know you tried fixing me
I was stuck in my ways, so fixated on pain
You really drove me insane, as if I was replaced
I accept all the blame, I make countless stupid mistakes
And now it's too little too late, I'll carry this weight to my grave
It's me who created this space between us and pushed you away
The truth is that I ruined everything and made your heart break
Now you're picking up shattered pieces all by yourself
I broke your self-esteem and I played with your mental health
I'm sorry, but sorry doesn't mean anything but farewell
I heard you, I can't forgive myself, someday I'll burn in Hell
You know I'm your person
Underneath my empty surface is the spirit that you knew
I was swallowed and consumed
By the shadows of my past, when I try to fight them I'd lose
I'm good, not evil baby, it's my fault that you're confused
I can't believe I didn't see you, can't believe I didn't hear you
God, I hate this feeling, you disappeared, now I'm nowhere near you
I still see a future with you, I can't put you in my rear view
Fuck what everybody thinks, trust yourself, that voice within you
All my addictions affected, all my decisions, I'm quitting everything
I'm becoming clean
I was a fiend, that was me, yeah, but that ain't me
You're my only dream, now it all feels like a dream, maybe I'm asleep
I know you need clarity, I know I need therapy
I know you can't trust me 'cause you're still afraid and scared of me
I took you for granted, you took care of me and cherished me
I was supposed to do the same, I failed, how embarrassing
You're my favourite place on this planet that I can stand
Anywhere is home with you, I know you understand
We're supposed to die side by side, holding hands
With smiles on our faces after years of being sad
Listen, I'm your soulmate, forever yours eternally
I mean that shit eternity, I'll wait 'til you return to me
Wait 'til I grow eternally, wait 'til there's no more hurt in me
I know I wasn't worthy of you, I showed you the worst of me
And I make you happier than anybody ever could
Let me give you everything in this life that I said I would
You and me are different, we always been so misunderstood
We knew that our love was dangerous, but that's still a risk we took