I know that I seem fine on the outside
But the smile is too wide for it to be not mine
But it's been placed there strategically by a demon at my doorstep
I want them to hear me but I need them to approach
I can't do this on my own please read the words that I wrote
I'm trying my best to keep on grinning and keep on fighting
But I feel like I can't win, and I should stop the lighting
My quiet place is the only location where I feel whole
But what's a quiet place to you when they won't stop screaming for more
I said I miss you so
You said leave me alone
Why must we play these games
When you say that I have changed
Alone on an empty satellite
A one way ticket to far beyond the empty solar signs
But I was misconstrued, and then galactically denied
My heart was the meat and that girl was the cleaver
I mean, what's the point in living the dream if it was brought by a fever
Everyone around me kept saying I should leave her
But what's the point in listening when I was convinced I need her
A moonrise crashing over vicious, frothing waves
This idea of what I want, and a destiny that I've made
Finally looking forwards I put my car into drive
Fulfilling myself again of all the things I'd been deprived
So I walk down this winding crazy path
To the place where I talked to all of them last
Y'know, these people in my head of dreams
I'm so fucked up in the head it seems
Or is it all just a grand shakespearean tragedy
A construed version of my own reality
Y'know, I have it so good, and it should be okay
But I'm faced with these same bad thoughts every single damn day
My grades are slipping down icy riverbanks
My health is tipping over an empty acid tank
Why can't it just be good for me
A second meal of joy to feed
I just want to stay elated on top of a mountain
And not be in this rut accompanied only by myself, and my so called fucking talent
I know that I seem fine
The smile is too wide
Just push me to the side
And I'll try my best to shrug it off and keep on being kind