I don't know my heart Lost on an ocean And I've drifted so far Floating in circles Going back to the start Pulled on the wandering tides I don't know this place I feel like a stranger Just lost in the race And there's a pretender Who's wearing my face Smiling just like a clown I thought I was okay I thought I could just run away And face it all some other day In some other easier way Let it find me mid-flight I don't know the words I try to explain it But it sounds so absurd I try to ignore it till the feeling defers To some other wayward soul I'll use all this hurt and regret I'll surrender and take what I get It's makin' me stronger But I don't feel it yet Don't know if I ever will You know how I tried I really tried to live it right To know my place, cooperate And stay inside the lines But it's not enough anymore Now I'm paying the price Maybe I'm paying it twice I don't know my heart But it had to be broken To be opened