I'll finally work on a farm
And adopt a new name
I've never really liked mine
Maybe that's why I'll miss out on fame
One day I wont own a clock
I'll count my days by the sun
And if it wont rise for some reason
Maybe that's how I'll know when I'm done
And I'll pack it all up and shake off all the bad parts
Maybe I'll be able to convince someone that I'm smart
And I'll walk on the Earth and tell my old friends I'm walking on stars
That's if I make it that far
I'll finally run away
Like I've always vowed
Cause I know if I stay
It'll make my family too proud
And maybe if I'm lucky
I mean the luckiest it gets
I'll write words that change the world
That make me feel proud but that's not where I'm placing my bets
And if I'm just as lucky I'll have someone right next to me
Carving out plans in the back of a redwood tree
Where I fell in love the first time but never really fell that hard
That's if I make it that far
To have a scar on the back of my spine
And yours has faded but I still have mine
Fading is just another way to say "it gets better over time"
If at the end of the day I'm just bones
It doesn't matter what I called my home
Home is just another way to say "I'm scared of what I don't know"
I hope I make it to the point where I'm unmovable
And dying in the hands of someone slightly more beautiful
Cause even at my lowest I know I'll let that tear me apart
I hope I make it that far