You see I got the biggest Hole in my heart cause your home in it is empty Tell me Why'd I think I could change it with all this MD I'm Done with the envy the outcome is never friendly I'm trynna learn how to love without teaching you to resent me Shit Lately I've been on some soul searchin Ask the surface of my sole How my souls hurtin' If they say that life's a play when'll they roll the curtain You can never know for certain n that's why I'm sayin Why don't you treat me like a person Instead of a purse Why you keep shouting out them curses And saying I'm cursed I wrote this verse while hoping that we converse But timing is of the essence I can't afford to reverse Gotta, work on me first I'm really dying of thirst I need to heal and it's deeper than pointing at where it hurts Hidden beneath the worst And beyond the reach of my words And the love left is praying for better hold I ain't a sucker for all that shit I consider old I took a leap of faith and I found out the waters cold My heart is heavy as what the weight of my worth is in gold So I try and iron out the creases unpack all the folds Dealing with the shit you tuck at the back of your soul Dealing with the shit you need if you wanna be whole Be in control by giving up your idea of having control And trust in somebody else Only whom is always the question Lately I've been reflecting while staring at your reflection And thinking 'bout all the features I miss about you I know we haven't really been texting Or showing love and affection You told me you'd call me soon And I didn't doubt you Although I haven't really been present I've been a hell of a mess And a mixture of being busy or sad about you But I'm still very glad that I met you I ain't no longer upset you see patience is Just a virtue I picked around you Now I'm learning Times change Things change People change too People change things Things change Over time true Hayibo No this ain't a verse see this a haiku I know you don't like it when I have to hide you But damn I'm choosing faith over pleasure Cause no matter the weather Courage is grace under pressure It's the heart that I treasure Forgive my hardening measures And they might seem to come across as Some childish endeavours But I would rather hear nothing sweet Than a sweet nothing Yet it feels deeper when nothing proves it Could turn to something See I assumed that I'd know the route When I passed the junction But risk is steep when you base your truth On ajar assumptions And putting focus on all your losses Will leave you broken The healing process"ll leave you scarred As a memory token My teary eyes fill the rivers that guide me Through the motion And float me back to an ocean full of joy Laughter and love with hope and devotion