I don't know why, I feel this way, It's like I can't control myself, ANYMORE, I fear for my life, I'm tired of fighting off these feelings, I have, I feel like shit, Have I ever told you, I fucking hate myself? And have I ever told you, I don't give a fuck, About myself, I am a curse, I am a curse, I've lived and made mistakes, I've died and had regrets, So is there only one way out? I've lived and made mistakes, I've died and had regrets, So is there only one way out? I'll put myself to sleep, When I sleep, I dream of what I can't have, And when I wake up, I am torn, And when I wake up, I am nothing, I am self loathing.