Asked her where are my pills she says "don't know"
The withdrawal kicks in but I don't show
She gon' fix me with oxy I said no
Ain't goin' so low
In the night it goes sideways I might cry
I just wanna die
In my mind there's a lie that I'll be fine
If I just get high
This ain't me
I just need
Something to set me free
In my mind there's a lie that I'll be fine
If I just get high
I'm scared to fall asleep
So all night I lie in bed
I'm trying not to dream
Afraid of what I'll see
I'm scared to close my eyes
Cause I might sleep too deep
I'm terrified I won't get up
Let's invite all my demons to come in
Keep 'em happy and close to the party
Maybe they'll take a break from haunting me
Gimme a minute
Oh I can't fucking breathe
I only wanna be alone
Feeling shit in my zone
This existential crisis is my own
I'm not the only to get dragged down by my burden
It is my fault, I'm to blame, of that I'm certain
Play time
It's time to play hide and seek with my psychosis
Break time
There's no break time I'm always on the run
I'm scared to fall asleep
So all night I lie in bed
I'm trying not to dream
Afraid of what I'll see
I'm scared to close my eyes
Cause I might sleep too deep
I'm terrified I won't get up
My demons don't show in the day when I feel fine
It's getting too dark shit I think it's nearly play time
I'm scared to fall asleep
So all night I lie in bed
I'm trying not to dream
Afraid of what I'll see
I'm scared to fall asleep
So all night I lie in bed
I'm trying not to dream
Afraid of what I'll see
I'm scared to close my eyes
Cause I might sleep too deep
I'm terrified I won't get up
I'm trying not to dream
I'm trying not to dream
I'm terrified I won't get up
I'm trying not to dream
I try not to