Today I washed my hands in ashes I ate from the white doves And yearned for Megiddo in excelsis I feel that I breathe I feel that he breathes I feel that I breathe I feel that he breathes Yet I'm punished He is punished Yet I'm punished Kick me down the stairs He is punished God wears black today While he steps out in the world To carry the stillborn to the shore And I strengthen him to throw us into the fire His glint is a phenomenon Eat your children cause they are yours To see what they saw To remember darkness They are not what you wanted them to be They are not what you wanted them to be Today I drank the piss The fruits of wisdom And touched the children of the cross I helped them up to let them fall Again I was - did you see the star fall Aiwass - did you see the star fall