I'm standing on the edge of something I'd forgotten
Just close enough to see but not to touch
I'm standing on the edge of all I ever wanted
Saying I want it but I promise not that much
I was fine
So content with looking in from outside
'Til I saw a window open wide
Wanna see what being fully grown feels like
And I'm trying to keep my head up in the conversation
Bouncing words off walls and wondering if they'll stick
But the second glances turn into humiliation
Treat introductions like a worn-out party trick
Keep it cool
Or everyone will know that it's you
Snuck my way in through the bathroom
Just waiting for the moment they realize
Oh, and it gets so hard to breathe
When you're looking, you're looking at me
I want to be your silver screen
Sick of fighting the same old small-talk scene
Crashing the car
Blood on the dash
Broken glass scars through the internet
I want to prove myself, it stings
To you, I'm just a kid in the backseat
And I'm trying to be tough but hey, my heart is breaking
I could hold my own if only you would ask (you would ask)
You don't buy it when I say I'm strong enough to take it
And now I'm wishing that I could just take it back (take it back)
And it's time you drove me home
'Cause I can't be left alone
Oh, and it gets so hard to breathe
When you're looking, you're looking at me
I want to be your silver screen
Sick of fighting the same old small-talk scene
Crashing the car
Little girl crush
Seems the attention should be enough but
I want to be your favorite thing
Not just another kid in the backseat