Tell security to open up the gate Push through the crowd of people tryna get in my face My body can't carry its weight Fall face first on a random driveway My brother says I threw up blood I was too drunk to know what it was Laying in a hospital bed covered in dirt Coming to terms that I'm really damn hurt If they didn't find me in the nick of time I would be dead and my momma would cry Packing my room and saying goodbye Asking themselves why I'd fuck up my life My life flashes before my eyes I hear all your cries And it haunts me at night Can I stop making mistakes I'm testing my fate Make you carry the weight Long black hair match her new Doc Martens She runs away from all her problems It's not that I don't care You don't gotta understand, no Don't care enough to understand, no Oh that I don't want our time to end You never liked when it got rough The lonely nights out in the dark You only like me when I'm up But now we're falling out of love If they didn't find me in the nick of time I would be dead and my momma would cry Packing my room and saying goodbye Asking themselves why I'd fuck up my life My life flashes before my eyes I hear all your cries And it haunts me at night Can I stop making mistakes I'm testing my fate Make you carry the weight