I should know better by now Not to burden those around me My head can't seem to focus My gaze shines with its absence My eyes they barely close I would hurt myself again If it wouldn't hurt you too When it's silent I'm shaking Sometimes I wish you knew How close I was to disappear Every night spend in hope Of forgetting the memories That I once was I once was Someone who never Planned ahead this far My intentions always seem to disappoint I hold myself accountable For never being good enough I don't have the strength to let you go But wouldn't blame you if you chose to leave If you chose to leave I'm sorry that I closed my eyes Pretended to ignore the fights I never saw how my self harm Would replicate itself in you In hindsight I see clearly now How my behavior dragged you down My negligence for your concerns Is what pushed you away When you put out the bedroom light And we laid together in the dark The cold sheets seemed to represent Preservation from your end As I was desperately clinging on For you to never leave me alone The love that you asked for Was something I could never give The worst part is knowing that you'd been better off Without me My intentions always seem to disappoint I hold myself accountable For never being good enough I don't have the strength to let you go But wouldn't blame you if you chose If you chose to leave I wouldn't blame you if you chose to leave I wouldn't blame you if you chose to leave I wouldn't blame you if you chose to leave I wouldn't blame you if you chose to leave I wouldn't blame you if you chose to leave