It hurts to say i lost What it felt like was on my chest For you It kills to hear that you can't deal And that i'm too much for you now I've really never felt more distanced Nothing's ever felt so well I wanna change But i know that there's conditions Who do you wanna be And what do you want And i don't even think about you anymore And i wish you were dead You're a lot better when you're quiet Yeah, that's why you said And I say i'm better off Never let me do that to myself again But I know it's all a front I'd go back if you gave me a chance Now I don't know If i'm better or I'm worse Or even remotely the same I'll try again tomorrow But i say that every day And you will break That cycle And it kills me, I hate you, Do it again Do it again Do it again You wanna change You said you wish You were different It's been a year Now I can't help you Anymore And I don't even think about you anymore And I wish we never met Always knew how bad it hurts I wish you knew the how it's been And you know There's no quick fix And the wrong way Is just too long It gets harder The more you try to explain Cause you know, You don't know yourself Like you thought