What if It never changes My pain is endless And that's it And what if I'm always healing Forever pining For sanity But now life has ceased And the storm's calmed its breeze Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic in my head Maybe I preferred when I was a mess everyday in my bed And I couldn't handle it then But I can't take emotionless Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic in my head What if The ache just worsens My bones can't balance a skeleton But now life has ceased And to stone my numb feeling Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic in my head Maybe I preferred when I was a mess everyday in my bed And I couldn't handle it then But I can't take emotionless Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic It's not easy Feeling nothing Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic in my head Maybe I preferred when I was a mess everyday in my bed And I couldn't handle it then But I can't take emotionless Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic Maybe I preferred it when it was chaotic