I wanna be alone, I wanna spend all day at home I wanna lay down in my zone, watching nothing on my phone So what's the matter if I just lose myself for a few more months? Walk to the voice instead that tells me that I am dead If I don't do this thing right now Even if I don't know how Even if I don't know why All I can do is try I gotta go outside, explore the field and the grass behind The driveway where my car is parked, so full of empty fast food cups There's a dead mouse on the rocks, its death must have hurt a lot I'm wondering if he died when I pulled my car back in last night If he wont turn his fucking brights off I swear to god I'm gonna swerve off If I can't wake myself up right now I don't think that I'll ever learn how I fucking wish I could just go out to the surface Be so type-A, not demure Wish my fucking confidence would spew from every orifice in my face until I was someone new