If I have to be here
I might as well be with you
It's been so long
Since I haven't hated you
We spent so long here
In this lovely place
When we were lovers
But now we're something new
Taking a six hour car drive
To see who we used to be
I took a picture of you
In that shirt that you had
The last time we came
You look so different
Everything's faded
We used to dance under the stars
Ill fitting shirts and late night fights
It's impossible to hate you now
(Even though I do)
In the space I can't change you now
If I have to be here
I might as well be with you
It's been so long
Since I haven't hated you
We spent so long here
In this lovely place
When we were lovers
But now we're something new
So this, this place
I, I take all my friends there
It's my, my favorite tree
It's a huge old growth in
Castle Rock State Park
By where I live
And, uh
It's at the junction at the
Ridge Trail and the Saratoga Gap Trail
If you wanna check it out
It's uh
37.227024, -122.103956
So uh
I wanna take you there
But I think
You still hate me
And when you talk to me now
It's nothing I wanna hear
In a situation where isolation
Was something I was near
Every walking route to get downtown
In the summer had you by my side
The only other gay kid in town
But the sun was in my eyes
And then we had two more years of high school
And it wasn't nice, looking back now
You've taken every chance to explain that
You like guys to everyone around
You attention seeking
Fuck seeking
Straightest guy in town
You liar
Your theater friends are gone
Now
If I have to be here
I might as well be with you
It's been so long
Since I haven't hated you
We spent so long here
In this lovely place
When we were lovers
But now we're something new