In the dark of night in blinding light I feel in ways accused of not doing what I can to open the can I'm holding now There are rations to be had Enough to file away the badness That's been had beneath these sheets For quite some time now Would hold me and unfold the hold I've formed around my soul And which story should be told And tolled is hard to say now I am a liar and so clean and mean I seek what's in between To weave the fabric of my story to my audience now All my friends see their ideal In me to deal with how They feel about the actions I unreel from the line of my life I can't help but feel the distance From all humans and their instincts To hurt and hate and love and mate and masturbate And I say things that you couldn't I act in ways I shouldn't I feel around the edges till I feel what's real now To my mother I am sorry for I Know that she does worry These are times where rhymes align So fine upon my tongue now I can't overcome my dreamin' It has led me to believe Tn the greatness of my calling That's been crawling after me And I know that she is nearing For I feel my heart a-rearing In the cage that is my chest It rests awaiting fervently When I hear them bells a-ringing I will move with arms a swingin With my will to win and win and win and win and win I will So with friends who will now listen I lay claim to what I'm missing You shall witness tides arise so high with me above it all