Slipping into old routines
Without you there to check on me
But you weren't very good at that to begin with
Told me once you felt more like a caretaker
Than my lover
And honestly when I look back I get it
Sewing up all my wounds alone now
I can't help but wanna make you proud now
I'm sorry that I crushed you under
All the weight I couldn't take
Because I was too young to understand
What it meant to ask for help
Before you put on your seatbelt
And I made you a safer place to land
I planted your resentment
I watered it to grow
Watched the roots travel so deep
You couldn't let them go
So I let you go
Dusted myself off more times
In these 5 months than my whole life
And standing here I know I'm stronger for it
Sewing up all my wounds alone now
I can't help but think you'd be so proud now
I'm sorry that I crushed you under
All the weight I couldn't take
Because I was too young to understand
What it meant to ask for help
Before you put on your seatbelt
And I made you a safer place to land
I planted your resentment
I watered it to grow
Watched the roots travel so deep
You couldn't let them go
So I let you go, I let you go
Our time was exhausting at best
But I also laughed so hard it hurt my chest
I'm sorry that I crushed you under
All the weight I couldn't take
Because I was too young to understand
What it meant to ask for help
Before you put on your seatbelt
And I made you a safer place to land
I planted your resentment
I watered it to grow
Watched the roots travel so deep
You couldn't let them go
So I let you go go go