I peel my orange with a paring knife Felt it slip and now I have a slice Through the left side of my left hand Drink my coffee in the afternoon Had 4 cups it's gonna hit me soon Keeps me up into the night And when I close my eyes I see Someone is staring back at me Someone I haven't seen in weeks Sometimes it makes it hard to breathe Smoke a cigarette at midnight Think of mom and how she just might Wonder what I do sometimes Called her up and asked her how she is Hear her take a breath before she says "Think I'm changing all the time But when I close my eyes I see" Someone is staring back at me Someone I haven't seen in weeks Someone who's not the same as me Someone I do not want to be Sometimes it makes it hard to breathe